Friday, October 22, 2010

I am not my hair

Lately I have been looking at people's heads on the minibus taxi to work. I have been looking in salons and on the net. All in search for a hairstyle that I can use for my adventure.

A hairstyle that will be simple, modest and above all easy to maintain on no budget. On my trip I will probably be busy enough stressing about a whole lot of other things, having the time of my life and learning so much, so the last thing I want to be worrying about is hair drama. To this day I am still in a dilemma. What to do?

I am a simple girl. I stopped putting damaging chemicals in my hair in 2004 and have been natural ever since. Since then I would just do braids and plaits, or wear my afro. And every time it grew long silly me chopped it off again. Back then I thought my hair just looked nicer when short. And when I let it grow again, the heat of blow-drying would kill it big time, so I did another big chop and enjoyed my TWA again.

But it has now reached the point where my hair is not as short as I would like, but not as long either. It has just been lingering in the land between short and long. I do not feel like cutting it any more, so I am impatiently waiting for it to grow long enough for me to do something new with it.

It has been growing naturally now, without any blow-drying and I have been contemplating on getting locks for the longest time. I even consulted Thandi, my sister loc pro on helping me get them, but now... ummm... am still not so sure. I have already decided on the method of making the locks I would want, but I still have to decide how thick or thin my locks will be, and I just worry that if I lock them now before I go, they might not look so good because my hair is still so short.

Another option I am considering is twisting my hair, just having my hair in twist all the time, but with the option of untwisting it on days when I miss my afro. What's a girl to do? It might seem like such a trivial matter to some, but for a black girl it's not. I am not my hair, but my hair is so difficult. It just does not not give me the option of not doing much about it, or putting little effort into it. So I have to do something. But what?